Mental Medicine: Springing Forward
Happy Spring Loves!
We are 3 months into 2018 and I think it's time to check in and do some Spring cleaning!
Back in 2017, my word was discipline.
I've had to make many changes since the new year started and not all of them were easy. I had to find my purpose. I had to find what was going to get me up every morning and keep me going throughout the day. This included my career goals and personal project aspirations.
A year ago, if you were to ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up I would of said an NBA sideline reporter in a heartbeat. However, after immersing myself in different projects and taking time to talk to different people, I realized that I wanted to do more than cover basketball. I didn't want to limit myself to sports. So I honed in on my other talents and found a way to combine my passions into one. It wasn't easy. I had to come to terms with a lot of things and learn to be honest with myself, but this is the joy of the "finding your purpose journey." You get to try on different hats until you find the one that fits just right.
I earned my BA in May 2017 and picked up a full time job a month later after doing some freelance studio work and TV reporting gigs for my local station. Like many recent college grads, I accepted a job that had nothing to do with my degree. I was so afraid of being unemployed after college that I took the first thing that came my way. I told myself after 3 months I would move on to the next job. Well, 3 months came and went. Then 5 months. 5 months turned into 7. It was easily the worst job I've ever had, and I worked bussing tables in my university's dining hall, so that's saying something.
With my hour commute from Jersey to NYC, sitting at a desk for 9 hours, completing tedious office tasks, running errands for my boss and not to mention the racial undertones that popped up with being the only Black person in the office I was feeling completely drained.
I cried myself to sleep for months just to wake up puffy eyed to go through the dull routine of working in the city. I would come home with a bad attitude and be too annoyed to socialize. Finally, enough was enough. With the launch of Maya's Moment in December 2017, I decided that being my own boss was the only way to go.
So, I quit my job.
Was it a relief? Hell yeah. Was it scary? Hell f**kin yeah. I didn't have a full time job lined up. All my gigs are freelance. I'm not getting a consistent paycheck. On top of that I am starting a business, managing three (hopefully soon to be 4) social media brands, running a blog and hosting radio shows and events. Trust me it's a wild and fun ride but a consistent paycheck would really help a sista out.
I believe that staying busy is key, especially during a big transition in life. I'm tackling all these projects, reading books on marketing, took a trip to Miami for a conference and had the opportunity to be a guest on a YouTube series and I realized it hasn't even been a month since I quit my job! That's crazy right?!
It feels like it's been 5 months because I am constantly moving and working towards my goals while keeping my purpose in mind. I don't suggest quitting your job if you have no idea what your goals or purpose are. You don't want to be broke and lost. Have patience. Your purpose will find you. However it is your job to continue to put in the work and continue to grow. Read the signs that pop up in your journey. Be aware of the people you allow on this trip. Do not be afraid to create a space that it beneficial to you and can be warm and welcoming to others who genuinely support you and want to see you happy. Don't be afraid to take that leap of faith. Trust the process. Trust yourself. Trust your purpose.
Purpose. That's my word for 2018. What's yours?